Comings and Goings and My Vision (by Rebekah)
This morning at breakfast, we had three house guests. Marc made scrambled eggs with spinach, and french toast, and cut fruit. There was lots of hub bub and fun, and Wade, Judy and Josh, who are all in a Jealousy, Money and Posession course this weekend, told us about their experience. Alan, our new friend from a Shalom Mountain retreat had come down yesterday for a Shalom gathering. Last night, a bunch of us watched Mamma Mia in sing a long mode. That was a blast. Abba is a better antidote to depression than Prozac. Try it sometime.
It really proves the old saying, “the more the merrier.” I like it when there are lots of people around to play with. Sure it sometimes gets noisy, and messy. Definitely, you have to constantly take into account “the insane ideas of your collaborators” (a Vic Baranco saying). But the reason I live with a group is that I like the stimulation that lots of people provide. Last month we had lots of people here for a Basic Sensuality course taught by Lafayette Morehouse members. Next weekend, dozens of people are coming to experience Waking Down founders Saniel and Linda Bonder.
That’s the comings, and now the goings. In the last couple of months, two of our housemembers moved out. It’s been pretty quiet around here. This happens, and it is always like losing a member of the family. You want them to pursue their life dreams and the path that is laid out for them, and at the same time, you miss them. We also miss them financially, and no new house members were immediately apparent, so we advertised for renters. And none have come. I think this is righteous. We want to live in a house that is full of committed community members, not renters. Right now, I’m waiting for the vaccum to suck in the new folks. I know they’re out there, and they are probably not the people I think are coming. I experienced this when I lived in Yonkers. You stick out the lean time, and it passes. The answers seems to me to be “Party on,” and “if you build it, they will come.” My plan is to keep making my life and my house look like I envision it. I am putting more attention on my personal gratification, and less on what I think I should be doing. I am planning to leave my job in the next few weeks, so that I can put all my attention on the things I love. . .my family, my community, my growth as a spiritual being, my creativity. I’m confident that this is where my joy will come from, and as a natural outflow of that, the money.
Here is my vision: Trellis is thriving with 12 – 15 housemembers. We are so full, we buy the house next door to keep growing as a community. At least once a month we host a major workshop or course, with several other groups running on a weekly or monthly basis. Marc and I have ten or more coaching clients for either our relationship coaching, my diet coaching/healing practice etc. I have lots of time to write, travel, sing and dance, talk on the phone, and watch Angel re-runs with Ariana. Marc is in his passion too, and all our financial needs are abundantly taken care of. We travel and study, and have a juicy romantic relationship that is the source of all our power. Everyone around us is going for their visions, and we all live in an awareness of the continuous presence of love.
We are always either coming or going in life. I’m coming into my power and going after my dreams. How about you?
